It's around 9pm, on a Tuesday evening. At almost 20 °C outside, it's pretty warm for the season, but the sun has long sat down. My window was open almost through the entire day and I can hear how the whole city is going quieter. Not unlike most days, I am sitting at my desk, at home, working.

But something is completely different, tonight. Instead of finishing my tasks for the day, I am preparing for them to start. Instead of having a glass of wine, I am drinking a coffee I just boiled in the kitchen...

In 2 hours, I expect an event so important to me, that... I can't possible explain.

At precisely 8pm UTC (11pm here in Bulgaria), I am going to have my first independent product release. I am releasing my app, Pagehop, you can check it out (or not).

To calm myself down, and kill sometime between tasks, I decided to write this post. But it's not for you, Dear Reader, sorry - I am writing this, so I can remember "what was it like", just hours before everything changed... Or didn't...

So, what is it like?

I have build something that I like and use and am passionate about.

So many lessons learned, along the way - incorporating the company (done that on my own, with some advice from friends), taking care of accounting, dealing with the government, banks, payment providers... the list goes on and on. So many details tweaked... sometimes I lose the big picture, drilling on something too small, but this is, too, a valuable experience and a lesson.

And here I am, finally, about to reach this huge milestone in my work, and in my life...

I am scared shi*less. So many things can go wrong... I don't have the time to list them, before tomorrow.

Will people like what I did? Will the site handle the traffic? Will there be any traffic, or will Pagehop's first breathing hours be in a "cold. empty. room"?

So many things going through my mind...

And there it is...

Image of a reminder notification for Scaling website resources for release.

... a reminder pops-up, telling me to scale the resources of the website and pre-warm it for release. This happens as I write this post...

I'm getting back to work.

So, future Me, I don't know "what happened", yet, but I will do my best to make you read this, with pride.

Couple of weeks ago, I was at the gym, training, when this kid, around the age of 10, came up to me and started asking me about exercises.

From the very first word he said, I noticed that there is something weird and unfamiliar about that kid. He was talking a bit slow, no accent, perfect Bulgarian language, but there was something different about him...

Later on, I overheard another kid asking him:

 - So your thoughts are in Norwegian?

 - Yes, they are, I think... - he said.

Then I connected the dots and realized what was different about him - he was living in Norway with his Bulgarian parents.

At the end of the workout, before I went out, I decided to ask the kid about the school he goes to.

He said he'll be in the 5th grade (or maybe even 6th, I forgot) this year and he hasn't been graded, yet... In Bulgaria, things are very different. We have grades from the very beginning of school and from 2nd grade on, you can be left to repeat a grade, if you can't keep up with the rest of the kids.

I've heard before about such an education system (no grades in the first school years) being used in western countries and I think this, probably, is the better approach.

Still, there is a very important component in the success of any system - fun.

I believe, that every educational system, with or without grades, should be fun. Kids should learn how to have fun working on problems and studying. Kids shouldn't be forced to study, until the required data gets in their heads. Instead, they should enjoy the process of studying. This is how they actively will want to learn and improve, not only while there is a teacher over their heads, but for the rest of their lives.