It's around 9pm, on a Tuesday evening. At almost 20 °C outside, it's pretty warm for the season, but the sun has long sat down. My window was open almost through the entire day and I can hear how the whole city is going quieter. Not unlike most days, I am sitting at my desk, at home, working.

But something is completely different, tonight. Instead of finishing my tasks for the day, I am preparing for them to start. Instead of having a glass of wine, I am drinking a coffee I just boiled in the kitchen...

In 2 hours, I expect an event so important to me, that... I can't possible explain.

At precisely 8pm UTC (11pm here in Bulgaria), I am going to have my first independent product release. I am releasing my app, Pagehop, you can check it out (or not).

To calm myself down, and kill sometime between tasks, I decided to write this post. But it's not for you, Dear Reader, sorry - I am writing this, so I can remember "what was it like", just hours before everything changed... Or didn't...

So, what is it like?

I have build something that I like and use and am passionate about.

So many lessons learned, along the way - incorporating the company (done that on my own, with some advice from friends), taking care of accounting, dealing with the government, banks, payment providers... the list goes on and on. So many details tweaked... sometimes I lose the big picture, drilling on something too small, but this is, too, a valuable experience and a lesson.

And here I am, finally, about to reach this huge milestone in my work, and in my life...

I am scared shi*less. So many things can go wrong... I don't have the time to list them, before tomorrow.

Will people like what I did? Will the site handle the traffic? Will there be any traffic, or will Pagehop's first breathing hours be in a "cold. empty. room"?

So many things going through my mind...

And there it is...

... a reminder pops-up, telling me to scale the resources of the website and pre-warm it for release. This happens as I write this post...

I'm getting back to work.

So, future Me, I don't know "what happened", yet, but I will do my best to make you read this, with pride.